linger
I once woke up dizzy from last night's hangover. There were still lingering with a faint sense of unease. In the fog of residual drunkenness, there seemed to be a memory that kept haunting. Sadly, things are always never good.
A quick glimpse of her was blocking, appeared and flattened again as a dream. It transformed into a flash of like-further events, perhaps feeling real enough as a story that happens in life. Even though it never actually happened.
In that brief moment, she was suddenly there at an important moment in my career. she looked at me, approaching. Saying hello, as if we had not seen each other for so long.
She said she's proud of what i am now. Regretted not choosing me when we were almost together. He kept encouraging me, who was about to climb a podium that day.
Once i thought if I chose her, my life would be completely different than it is now. But on one side, other questions popped up. Is she the one I've been longing for since the beginning?
Things felt very real for a while until I woke up with a bit of a shock. Realized it was just a dream. And I continued the efforts to fall back asleep in the short time before sun rises.
The rest of feeling still carried over after the dream. The one who sometimes comes to mind, perhaps there're still memories left in mind. Although I'm sure, she's a completely different person compared to the one I knew 20 years ago.
Maybe she's a different person I knew from the start. Unfortunately, the memory of her persona still lingers and sometimes I miss it. Probably, dreams are a form of the deepest hope embedded in mind.
Unfortunately, I dissolved into this wishful thinking just to romanticize her without a definite purpose. Sometimes it still lingers.