on passiveness
It’s been months since i’ve gone passive. A decision i’ve taken to respond a peculiar circumstances at work.
I thought it’s the most sane decision, where you couldn’t believe in which you called friends, colleagues. To silent and to work on things you only deserve is the right thing to do.
Passive on my term means working only on your behalf, to prove you’re profesional, you have the competency for the job. It also means leaving emotional connectivity to colleagues, boss, and others that might lead to a thinking that this company is a family for you.
While the fact it’s not. Don’t blur the line between office and family. Office is a place where you work for a person, they don’t accept you fully as a whole human. It’s really different again comparing to family, which often accepts you as you are.
Remove the emotional attachment. That was the right thing to do. It’s the right thing since you couldn’t rely on colleagues who should’ve been a friend.
Avoid the attachment again and for all. Since i still couldn’t believe a person i know could stab so hurtfully in the back, to know what i’ve been going through in the past with the circumstances i face. And she thinks the situation was just okay.
People were sacrificing for you, while you didn’t struggling hard with your colleagues. Then you think you’re victim of the situation. I must tell you that it’s actually all your fault. Remove all the attachment since it only lead to sadness at the end. Trust, only gives you dissapointment to at the very end.
To think about it, things will work that way. Leaving emotional connection gives us freedom. To not feel dissapointed by colleagues and boss who you trust is a blessing. In short, never rely on your friends at work.
I suddenly remember back then in childhood. I used to do things silently because i don’t like to show things in progress. I’d like to serve the task when it’s done. To do it that way comforts me.
To reflect what happened again all these months, i’d like to think this all happened for a reason. So i should continue living.